Mother's Ilk

Your appearance in the courtyard 

is a pale reflection of season's past 

when you illuminated the morning glories 
with your rapturous charm
and old men at the chess board 

arose in chorus to praise 

your brightly-colored ensembles.

Now, some hostile years have marched 

over your allure, 

scarring a landscape marked by 

husband's infidelities,

an ectopic pregnancy, 

Lyme disease,

a breast cancer scare.
  
The hand-woven sweater which seasons ago 
adorned a vibrant figure 
struggles to obscure a shy, defeated form.
  
Your daughters flutter beside you, 

nimble as a fireflies.
The promise of the day is alight in their eyes.
You smile when their eyes meet yours, 

but not often besides.
  
Your husband pulls the water hose 

to his pickup truck, 
eyeing the buxom neighbor across the way.  

You were once a splendid bride, 
full of laughter and unbounded esteem.  

When we danced on your wedding day

you declared you never knew such euphoria.

"He's The One," you said,

and I spied in your lavender-painted eyes

the hypnotic state that bends lovers

toward forever promises.

I blessed you, 

and I blessed your marriage,

because there is only 

       this

       moment 
before the curtain drops 

and one is heard no more.  

Your daughters wave hello, 
exalted in their matching floral-print dress.

You conceal your fractured spirit from them,
yet, when they are old enough 

for shopping malls, 

push-up bras, 

and boy's lusty stares──

when they learn of father's affairs──

will you commend them 

to hold sacred their precious pearls, 

to value what is divine in them 
and what should never 

be surrendered?

Or will they suffer the contamination

of mother's soured milk.

**First published in Suspended Magazine